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TMI Thursdays

Here’s another TMI post. Ready? Okay.

For all long time, I didn’t follow my dreams. Why? Because I was told I wasn’t pretty enough and that I wasn’t good enough, and most importantly, because I believed them.

For as long as I can remember I knew I wanted to be in front of the camera, singing, or just make a career in the music industry. I have videos of me dancing and singing like Selena, and I was so serious, too. I would perform for my family at family parties. I would make my mom record me as I walked around interviewing my brother and annoying him (some things never change). I felt like I was destined for entertainment at such an early age.

So what happened? Well, you start going through a phase where you’re insecure and it doesn’t help that  people you’re close to put you down. I remember being told by a “close” friend that I wasn’t pretty enough, skinny enough, or even talented. One of my biggest faults is trying to please everyone and not wanting to hurt anyone’s feelings. It’s not so much of a fault, but it hindered me. I never wanted to “shine” or be “praised” for something good I did, because I didn’t want people to think I was a show-off. I always belittled my accomplishments because I didn’t want others to feel bad. I cared too much. The problem is other people don’t care, and actually that’s okay.

And don’t get me wrong, I too was the cause of some of those insecurities. I would tell myself that what I had to say wasn’t as important, and people didn’t want to hear it. I told myself I wasn’t pretty enough to get a job in the industry because I’m not a size 2. I even feared being great and “making it” because I was scared that people would call me names and just be mean. How stupid is that? It’s not until this very moment, as I’m writing this that I see how much it affected me. I was looking at the smaller picture. The price you pay for following your dreams is the occasional “hater” (I hate that word), but it’s a small price to pay when you get to do the thing you love for a living.

At some point in my life, I gained confidence, and a “so what!” type of attitude. I stopped caring and started doing EVERYTHING I wanted to do. I went back to school, I applied for internships and jobs that I only dreamed of doing before. I put myself out there. I made sure I was myself. And if you like it, GREAT and if you don’t that’s okay, too. I stopped trying to be everything people wanted me to be. I’m me. I’m weird, random and creepy at times, lol. I will never go back to being scared of being myself. EVER. I am so happy and confident in my journey. Good looks help, but I have a bangin’ personality that will get me far in life.

So thank you to my closest friends who have put up with my weirdness and embraced it & thank you for being supportive in everything I do.

I hope everyone has a beautiful day!

With lots of love,

Musiq Gypsy <3

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1 Comment

  1. Kristina
    3 years ago

    You are perfect the way you are! I am so glad you have learned to love and accept yourself (because you are perfect in my eyes, weirdness and all) you are an amazing and ambitious woman! Keep going. We love you!!❤️❤️

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